A few days ago I was asked by someone if I could carry on a conversation with someone about Charlie Kirk or anything I didn’t really believe in without getting mad. I said yes. I already know we don’t believe the same on certain things, but I can still talk about. Probably won’t change minds, but it would be Interesting. Today, I was in a conversation with that same person, who I disagreed with something they said about Kirk (being “Christ like” to paraphrase) and the person told me because I didn’t hear of Charlie Kirk before and knew nothing about him, I shouldn’t be speaking about him. Huh? It surprised me because of who the person is, but because the person showed “anger” I said, “yeah let’s not talk about him.” I was asked, “did he (Kirk) really say that or did you just hear it? Did you hear him say that?” So because I don’t believe Kirk is Christ-like, means I can’t listen to his message, or I can’t read about him and make my own decision about him? That was crazy. LOL OH WELL… I’m not out here to change minds. I share what hits true to me, what I can relate to, what resonates with me and my belief. If you don’t want to hear or read what I have to say or put out there, do you, Boo. Do what you gotta do.
I have two FB accounts, one being where I talk about my time as a wife and stepmom and what I/we/Keith dealt with. It ain’t pretty. I’m thinking of shutting that page down and bringing it all Over here, but I already know some may say, “get over it, you’re not over it yet? It’s been 20+ years…” so on and so forth. No, no the hell I am not over it, just like I’m not over my mom dying at the young age of ALMOST 31, 4 months shy of her 31st birthday. I’ve just learned to keep on going.
The trauma doesn’t go away, the trauma of losing a parent at such a young age doesn’t go away, the trauma of having it posted ONLINE that you k*lled your husband, doesn’t go away, even though I know it’s not true. Not once but serveral times. Or how about being accused of having an affair with your husband and that was why he divorced his 1st wife, when I was only 13 years old- or being told that I was the cause of a loony tunes (Keith’s 2nd ex wife) 2nd divorce. The trauma of hearing a lunatic scream that Keith and I buy bullshit things for our kids and “their asthma” INSANE! I’ve learned to keep going and consider the source. I had to do what I had to do to keep the sanity.
We don’t believe the same? GREAT! I still respect you on your side of the divide. Never tell me that I can’t speak on something. I speak on what I know and if I don’t know, I’ll research it myself.
I’m a little lit. Glad I took off today, had personal business to take care, but THIS got me lit.
~This Is My World~ 