~This Is My World~

For this beautiful gift you gave me. RIP. I’m glad you are no longer in pain, physically, mentally, emotionally.

Well, my daughters biological father died. I got word today. His sister called me. He died on Monday, 7/24/23. I’m shocked and saddened.

I’m sitting here thinking how Anthony was in Sarahs life from 0-7
months old. Then Keith raised Sarah from the time she was 10 months old until she was 12 years old, as his own, and caught a lot of shit for it from his ex wife #2. (That’s another story and I digress). Then of course, Kai stepped up.

I never spoke bad about Anthony to Sarah. There was no need to. Even though I had sole legal and sole physical custody of her, and he had no rights of visitation due to his issues, I always told him to let me know if and when he wanted to see her and I’d make arrangements, including a 3rd party. The offer was never taken. He didn’t want me or a third party present.

A few months after Keith died, I called Anthony and told him what happened and how it would be great and a perfect time for him to step up to the plate. He said ok, told me about his ex wife passing away, but again, nothing.

Sarah went with me to court so she could meet him at one point in time. He didn’t show up. She and I drove by his house in Lakewood because she was curious about him. She didn’t want to stop. I wasn’t going to force her.

I would send him pics of her every year, most of the time around her birthday. No response.

In Dec 2016 he sent me a text that said, “Patty you tell my daughter to contact me anytime I don’t need to speak to you to see her. Patty in the past you never let me see Sarah so I will talk to her but I have nothing to say to you I rest my case.”

She will be 30 this Tuesday and she never met him, though not because SHE didn’t try. This is not to bad mouth him either. He had his issues. His sister told me that over the last couple of years, he turned over a new leaf. I was happy for him. She also told me that he had told her he loved Sarah and hoped to have a relationship with her.

My daughter is sad that there is no longer an opportunity for her to meet him. That saddens me also. There’s no hard feelings, and she is not going to feel guilty about anything. There were never any cross words spoken between them. I would sign our names to a Christmas cards, I had always sent him job leads when I knew he was out of work, pics
Of Sarah, etc. I was also tough on him in the sense that while he thought he could just ignore his 3rd child, he had a responsibility to her. Hell, I even defended him to Keith’s ex, when she wrote bold face lies about him, but I digress. (It’s all on my blog anyway.)

I was also thinking how I have two kids with 2 biological fathers both who are now gone. That saddens me as well.

Since Sarah will be 30 on 8/1, here is the last pic I would have have sent him, via messenger, whether he saw it or not.

I really was always hopeful.

My goodness- first week of summer vacation went by fast! Granted, I spent a lot of time getting back to normal after not feeling good the weekend prior, AND I was able to spend time with my girl, having a couple mom and daughter times with her. My son had been doing his own thing, work, gaming, hanging with friends, and I’d see him when he’s taking a break from gaming or when I pick him up from work. I visited with Kai and helped him with some paper work he needed help with, I’ve been listening to podcasts by Mel Robbins, I read a book, albeit, an older one from Alex Baldwin about his divorce and the Parental Alienation he experienced, if you known me, you know that subject matter has always been close to my heart, and I’m about to start another one by Jay Shetty, “Think like a Monk.” Every other day or so, I tried to get outside and take care of my plants, they do need some TLC 💚, and do a little yard work, it’s just been too hot, and if you know me, again, you know I don’t heat well at all, LOL.

Anyway, while I feel I hadn’t done much except waste the time away, I’ve actually done more than I have myself credit for.

While I miss our students, I miss my co- workers and I look forward to getting back to work, I really do enjoy this off time. It’s good for my peace of mind and my soul.

Have a great Friday, everyone!

P~

My hematite ring broke today. It surprised me. Later on in the day, I went and bought another one from my FAVORITE place, https://www.mysticeyebotanica.com. I also got a gold magnetic hematite ring. I wear the black one on my left index finger and the gold one on my right ring finger, but for easier picture display, I put them both on the same hand.

It was really crazy because the whole time my daughter and I were in the store looking around, I had both rings on, no problem. When I purchased them and walked out, suddenly the gold one didn’t fit. I couldn’t believe it. I went back to see if I can possibly exchange it, showing the sales clerk that no matter what finger I put it on, it would fit. She too thought it was crazy because she saw me walking around with both of them on! She took out her ring sizing tool, thinking they may be different sizes, the one I bought and the one I was exchanging it, and lol and behold, they were the same size! I couldn’t make this up! She let me exchange it, no problem.

I also bought some new stones. Can’t have too many, right?! I’m trying to tell ya, this store, just like Barnes & Noble, should be illegal to me, LOL. ANYWAY…

I bought a Blue Bloodstone, a Blue Quartz and a Lapis Lazuli. I LOVE THEM!!!

I feel so much better, settled, and happy, and I just wanted to share with you.

Have a great evening, everyone!

TTFN,

P~

Went with Kai to see this musical at the La Mirada Theater of Performing Arts. So excited and it really was our lucky day! Went to go buy tickets and was told, “well, it’s your lucky day! Someone just told me they can’t use the tickets and to give them to someone who could use them!” Voila! Thank you!🙏🏼♥️

If you live in or around the area, even if you don’t, LOL… SEE THIS MUSICAL!! It’s truly AMAZING!!

Had a Mother/Daughter day today with my oldest. It was a great day. After breakfast at Polly’s Pies, we went to Barnes and Noble.

I told her that I hadn’t been there in so long that I just wanted to go see what looks good, if there are any sales going on etc.

I noticed they rearranged the store since the last time I was there, so while I was back tracking from a maze I found myself in, I found a book she said she wanted, so I picked it up and continued to follow her voice to where she was.

When she saw me, she said, “oh, you found the book I wanted” and I told her mod my adventure in the store of thinking I was heading in the right direction to where she was, only to be blocked by a wall of books and when I backtracked, the book was in front of my face.

Long story short, we picked up some books, I bought her the book she wanted, plus a few more I wanted and and she bought a book for herself. As we were driving home, I told her, “ok, ok, I told you a little white lie.” She just looked at me and said, “what?” I told her when I told her I wanted to go to B&N, just to see what’s new there, I already KNEW what I was going for. I told her when she had told me yesterday that she wanted the book Plant You by Carleigh Bodrug, I had planned on getting it for her, so I was actually on a mission. She was so happy and said thank you. We looked through the book later on and it really looks amazing. If you are eating a plant based way, I highly suggest this book!

While I was looking for a book that interested me, I came across THIS book, SPARE, with a 30% off sticker. I chuckled to myself, wondering how long it will be before it ends up at the Dollar Tree store or 99 Cent stores 😁.

Here are the books I bought today and SPARE, that I left on the shelf. 😁

It was a great day!

Until next time….

P~

Well, well, well….internet surfing brought some crazy information up. Oldest stepdaughter is getting a (possibly second) divorce, filing in Jan 2023.

Back in Feb. 2006, days short of 3 months that my husband, her Dad passed away, she came out of nowhere to attack me via MySpace. https://mspisceangal2020.wordpress.com/2006/02/23/and-now/ and this one https://mspisceangal2020.com/2006/02/23/here-comes-another-one/ .

She didn’t want to communicate with me several months before, but after her dad died, she wants to slide into my DM’s? Wasn’t she happily married to the first guy? I mean, on March 26-05, I wished her a long lasting marriage, what is she bugging me for? I mean, I knew that as of 6-13-05, the October wedding had been postponed, but it was 8 months later. Who knows…

ANYWAY, she married the second guy, on 8/27/11. They had twins about 4 years later, and now, 12 years after they said I DO… she’s filed for divorce from him. That’s going to cost him a pretty penny. He’s in real estate. Need I say more? Poor guy, I feel badly for him because he lost his mom about a year ago or so now as well. GEEZ. He’s got to be hurting. 2 whammies.

I’ve written this guy before via FB. The first time was 2/2015, sending him a my son, his wife’s half brother, along with a note saying how surprised I was when reading my FB newsfeed, he and his wife appeared under “People you May know.” I told him it was a beautiful picture of the two of them and while I don’t know him, I’d known his wife for a 12 year period at one time, way back when. I told him I was glad she was happy. I also told him the pic is of my 17 year old son, his wife’s half brother, and how he wonders about his older siblings, that I hoped everyone was doing well, nice to “see” him and to take care. I got no response.

In Nov of 2015, I send him a message congratulating him and his wife on the birth of their twins, on behalf of myself, my son, and my son and his half sister’s cousin. No response from him.

Last night, I send a message to him saying sorry to read of his impending divorce, that I wish him nothing but the best through it all. I hoped that there would never be any issues of him seeing his twins and that he is always allowed to see them when he wants and to take care. He responded back with the weirdest of message. He wrote, “May God forgive you for all your hurts! I see you’re very heartbroken. May God fill your hear with love. I know you mean well, but the family wants nothing to do with you. Please understand I have to block you now.”

Say what? The Family? I wasn’t writing the family. I just happen to know how that family works. I don’t have hurts and I was heartbroken when my husband, his soon to be ex wife’s dad died, nearly 18 years ago. I’ve learned that Life goes on. We continue on with our lives, with a new normal, living without him. He will have to learn the same lesson, losing two women he loved much.

The guy, on the other hand. MUST be going through it. His mom passing away, now dealing with this divorce, I can’t even imagine. I hope my former oldest stepdaughter does right by him. I remember reading about how she wouldn’t let her oldest child’s father see him. So, so sad.

I still wish her current soon to be ex husband the best as he goes through this madness. Hopefully it doesn’t cost him too too much.

TTFN,

P~

OMG, I can so RELATE!!! https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRw75mxB/