Why is it, and I’m just curious, when someone finds out a sibling died, they ask, “ I’m so sorry, where you close?” Huh? What difference does it make? I’m sure they mean well, but that’s never something that I think to ask. Why does it matter? Things that make you go hmmm…
Today
I woke up this morning with you on my mind.
54 years ago you took your first breath and you started to live and thrive your way.
15 days ago, I saw you in the ER with a tube down your throat, blood all over on the blanket you were laying in, asking the nurse questions that she really couldn’t answer. I saw your body twitch, and had hope you were hearing me and acknowledging what I was saying to you.
I visited you ever day I could, spoke to you verbally and Heart to Heart, while holding your hand, rubbing your arm, touching your hair, your face, forehead, and was just amazed at how you looked more like Dad than I realized.
5 days ago, after your Heroes Walk, you took your last breath. I saw you that day, briefly. I wished you a happy birthday from me and my family as well as from our sister, Chelle. I kissed your hand, and walked out of your room, for the last time. On your birthday, you took your last breath.
I still can’t believe you’re gone, but you aren’t really. While I won’t see you physically anymore, or hear your voice except in my heart and memories, you DO live on in others, through your organ and tissue donations. The ULTIMATE, and most unselfish gift someone can give another.
Your soul is soaring, whole and pain free. Your spirit lives within those that were the recipients of the gift you blessed them with.
May you always know how much you were loved here on earth, and now you’re up in the Heavens being welcomed with love and open arms by those that arrived before you. Give a big hug and Hello from me and us down here to our family and friends you see.
You are missed, Mikey, so much. While we didn’t talk every day, I will cherish each and every memory and conversation we had.
Fly with the Angels, Brother. Thank you for being you.
I love you. 💔🙏🏼💚❤️
Yesterday, Ladt Night, This Morning
I left the hospital in the early afternoon, I had said what I thought were my final goodbyes because I was under the impression it was.
I got a text from my older brother asking me if I could meet with my sister in law this morning at 8:30 am at the hospital. Of course I said sure.
I had hope, I thought, did my brother show signs of opening his eyes? Did he make a VOLUNTARY movement? Did he come out of the coma and was sitting up smiling and talking?
I got to the hospital at 8:29am, this morning. When I met with my sister in law , she told me the news. Medical staff had been given the green light to start looking for donor matches, etc, and that within the next 24-48 hours, there will be a Heroes Walk as they wheel my brother to the OR where they will remove the ventilator from ny brother and perform the surgery to harvest his organs.
My bother is 53 years old. Tomorrow would be his 54th birthday. He leaves behind his wife of 20 years this October, his 25 year old daughter, and his 10 year old son.
My brother is an amazing man, made no enemies and would give the shirt off his back for anyone who needed it. He’s a very active parent, who does anything for his kids.
He’s very well loved. ❤️💔😢❤️💔😢
I Held Out For Hope
It’s not to be 💔😢💔😢 My brother will be taking his last breath within the next 24-48 hours as they search for matches and set up the organ donations. He is an organ donor.

Lately…
It’s been mentally exhausting. Last Friday evening, my youngest brother had a medical emergency. Please keep him in your prayers.
Today, my daughter and I are texting with a friend of ours regarding the house she and her siblings inherited from their late father. That whole situation has gone no where and it’s frustrating for my daughter.
We are going to see what can be done ASAP.
I’m tired, but I’m still doing what I got to do, my brother is on my mind, and that alone is a lot.
I hope all is well with you all!
TTFN,
P~
Excellent POINT!
From Light After Grief- IG
The caption is spot on and absolutely relatable. 😢💚
Edward or Jacob?
What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?
Oh man, the movies or TV series I have watched more than 5 times…
SO MANY. If I enjoy a movie, I will watch it over and over. I recently did that with the movie, “Just Wright” with Common and Queen Latifa.
I will also ALWAYS watch the Twilight Saga whenever it’s on whatever streaming channel 🙂 as well as TOMBSTONE, and Top Gun and Top Gun: Maverick.
What about you all?
TTFN,
P~
Sunday, Funday!
So, my birthday was on a Tuesday, (3/4) and we had a small celebration at home with just my little family. On Sunday though, I had a gathering at BJ’s Restaurant and Brewery, with about 12 of us. It was a lot of fun, good food, good convo’s and GREAT friends.
It went really well, until I got a text from my credit card company stating there was a pending charge of $300.31. Um, say WHAT?
The groups total bill was $352.28. OF that, $51.97 was the server’s tip. It was already assessed at 18%, so that left a food/beverage bill of $300.31. The thing was, the only charge that was to be put on the card was MY family’s dinner, and my portion of tax and tip, everyone else paid cash.
When the server came to take care of the bill, she asked, “Cash first then the balance goes on the card, right?” I said Yes, thinking that was the obvious way to do the transaction.
She came back with the Merchant receipt, I signed it, then I asked for my copy of the paid receipt. The server said, “Oh sure, no problem,” and came back with a copy of the receipt.
It wasn’t until the hours of the morning, as I was helping my daughter get her papers together for a court appointment she had, when I got the ding from a notification alerting me of a pending charge on my credit card.
I became INFURIATED, irate, livid! My poor daughter was like, “Mom, focus, we gotta take care of this, there’s nothing you can do right now about your situation, you can take care of that when the restaurant opens.” She was right. I helped her with her stuff, and as soon as we were done, I looked up the restaurant website and left an email for them.
I had to take yesterday off to babysit my grand baby, but I was also taking care of this situation. The restaurant opened At 11am, I called shortly after that, ready for bear! I asked to speak to the manager, and he told me that he had just been reading my email and he will be investigating the situation, the Director of Operations is involved and also investigating and he will call me back approx. 3pm. The manager told me that protocol had not been followed, asked me of I had signed anything, said i was valid in the feelings that they will be speaking with the “team member in a little Bit” and will keep in touch.
I sent the manager a copy of the receipt I received along with a long email. Part of what I asked was, WHY would she do this when it wasn’t what we agreed to, why would she even THINK if my bill was $352.28, that I would give her a $258 and change TIP?
I can’t say for sure, but I think my email got to him because I spoke to him at 12:42, he said he wants to make it right, he’s going to credit my card for $200 (it was actually $201.97) and is offering me a courtesy card via email for me to use. He was very apologetic. I asked if they had cameras they could check to see that there was cash involved and exchanged. He said that is why the Director of Operations was involved to investigate all that.
If I could have, I would have had her arrested for Petty theft, “PC 488, a criminal act to steal $950 or less” but the Sheriff’s Dept. that I called for that area, stated I could sue her in small claims court, there was nothing they could do about it.
ALL in ALL, I was glad BJ’s Management were on it. This was a first for me, it caused me MUCH stress, but I’m glad it was handled expeditiously and professionally.
WHEW….how was YOUR Monday? LOL
Who Do I Think I Am?
Which animal would you compare yourself to and why?
I would compare myself to a Lioness, primarily. I am calm, cool, collected, until I’m provoked then watch out! I am also fiercely protective of my cubs and grandcup 😉

